I’m even paranoid about my fuckin shoes i got today. don’t really wanna wear them because i know jonah wants black ones too and i don’t wanna make him feel bad seeing me wear them. and i don’t wanna seem like I’m bragging. fuck i may need to stop smoking cro
mann I’ve been so so paranoid recently about jonah and bronek too. just bare think I’m getting on everyones nerves but i dunno why. makes me feel so shit. ceri’s coming today which is the best news. could do everyone good getting out the way too.
i dream about performing every minute of my life. its such a shame i don’t have the confidence or ability to pursue that. wish i could live in my dreams.
bought ceri’s christmas presents today :) was weird i haven’t gone through this process for so long. i haven’t been in a proper proper relationship before either. like I’ve had girlfriends but there was always something wrong or missing. every things simple with ceri and i love it.
im not in love with her. but i do love her.
spent a lot of money today though looool. she better appreciate!
blerina did i make the right decision??? what would you have done?
last night i found out ceri got with my enemy over the weekend at this party. i nearly killed someone i was so furious. i was literally shaking and my heart was racing so fast. she was crying bare and was begging me to stay with her. i hope i made the right decision.
so many emotions came rushing though when i found out. didn’t know she meant this much to me. I’m falling.
never thought id be saying this haha. but i really want my mum right now. feel so broken.
hate presentations. just something about them that makes me scared.
blerina and jonah are 100% going out.